Not to some exotic island. Not to some other country, fabulous beach, historical landmark, sentimental forest, or a long lost relative’s house. I’m not even going to leave my town. But I am going to temporarily leave some things behind. This was a summer of letting go, and I’d love to continue that throughout the more stressful seasons of life. These past few weeks, I’ve been building and strengthening relationships that I have with people around me. I’ve been receiving long emails from my favorite Trinidadian friends, co-workers, friends who have moved on to college, and everyday friends. I’m part of a vigorous, yet absolutely amazing group chat with my Sisters in Christ. I’m also addicted to Pinterest. And Tumblr. And Instagram. But who isn’t honestly?
But yet, I am exhausted. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. I am stressed. I am tired. I’m a little sick actually. As I’ve been pouring into those around me and building relationships with those around me, I’ve been going to sleep later. Studying less. Becoming anxious more. It’s a problem. I’m going to be honest here. I am awful at managing my time. Besides becoming sleep deprived and failing at school, I’ve also been cutting out what should be the most important part of my day – devos. As a camp counselor, our devo time was scheduled every morning. It’s how I started my day, and later ended it. Same with camp and Trinidad. And because I was intentional about seeking God, He used me and those around me to do incredible things. And now we’re here. I’ve loved bonding with people – don’t get me wrong. I’ve loved pouring into others and having others pour into me. But it’s time to take a vacation.
I’m going to take a vacation from the internet. For one week. This was a shower thought actually. At first, I was reluctant and wondered how on earth I would maintain relationships. But then I realized, maybe that’s not what I need to do now. Instead, maybe I can be studying. Sleeping. Devo-ing. Helping my mom out around the house. Cleaning my room. Spending quality time with my siblings. I’ve been giving the internet too much control in my life. It’s become an idol, and has taken time which could be used for other more productive things. I need to set my mind on things above, not on earthly things. So here it goes. And if you know me, you know I hate change. You know I love investing in others. You also know my love for my bookmarked sites. And right here, right now, this vacation starts. I don’t think it’s going to be easy, but instead of wasting time, I’m going to spend my time praying, seeking God, building up my transcript, and maybe even exercising or something. Who knows. It’s not easy. But it’s going to happen. See y’all in a week.
And to end this post, let’s go visit some quotes from What About Bob [aka my favorite movie ever. period.]. So in the movie, Dr. Leo Marvin, an expert psychiatrist, encourages Bob, a serious patient case, to take a vacation from his problems, which include obsessive-compulsive disorder, panic disorder with agoraphobia, hypochondria, multiple phobias, as well as a very dependent personality. This dependent personality, anxiety, and multiple fears cause Bob to go above and beyond (i.e. faking emergencies, lying about his suicide) to seek help from his psychiatrist, Dr. Marvin, who is away on vacation with his family. Anyways, I won’t ruin the ending for you. But here’s some fantastic quotes.
“Roses are red, violets are blue, I’m a schizophrenic… and so am I!” -Bob
“Baby Steps, get on a bus. Baby Steps, get on a bus.” -Bob
“I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful…” -Bob
“Is this corn hand-shucked?” -Bob
“I’m sailing! I’m a sailor!” -Bob
“I’m taking a vacation from my PROBLEMS!” -Bob
See you in a week.